Monday, October 19, 2009
I have not updated my blog for so long that I forget at times that I still have this channel to pour my unhappiness to.
I think my world is so dark. When will I ever see daylight again?
I love myself but I don't love her enough that I am willing to refrain from doing something that upset her even further.
I don't know where my future will lead me to. I cannot imagine myself settling down. The more Emo I get, the more I think that is impossible. The only rational thought I have for now is that I must be suffering from depression, again.
My heart still aches. If God is there to listen, He should know what torment I am going through. However, there is something I am more sure. He does not pity me. I am disappointed with myself for landing in this state once again.
Fool. Fooled.
Don't ask me why. Don't force me. Don't push me to the limits. Let me be and I'll be free.
Posted by Buzz and Mulan at 9:01 PM