Sunday, November 01, 2009
I have just finished watching Poseidon on Channel 5. It was such a depressing movie.
Every time I watch a disaster movie or documentary, I will be very emotional and sad, wondering why life is so fragile. Very often, I read about misfortunes that happen around the world. Even though I live in a safe environment, I get very upset when people die. My rich knowledge about my subject has made me even more pessimistic about this world. I am very sure one day, the world will end, probably because we reap what we sow.
Next Thursday, a new movie will be screened. 2012. It is the year that has been speculated by some to be the time when the Earth will die. I still have a lot of things not done. I'm so sad. I dread to see people dying before my eyes. I ought to be strong but if it really happens, I may just go crazy. I have a pessimistic personality so I get depressed easily, but not a single person understands me. One can only reason with me by saying I have a ill temper. That makes me sadder. Will getting a 'better attitude' resolve my depression? I beg to differ.
Recently, I feel I have gained weight. Yet, no one feels that way. I don't like that. I can't help but to think that my health is deteriorating. There are times when I feel a black curtain of despair coming down on my life. I feel irritable all the time with no apparent reason. I have constant feelings of sadness, irritability and sometimes, tension. I am starting to lose interest in doing activities which I used to find fun. Clubbing, shopping and even manicure, seem to occur less frequently because I have no energy for them now. On weekends, I just want to coop up at home and do what, I don't know. Sleep, I guess.
*Yawnz.
Posted by Buzz and Mulan at 9:26 PM