Saturday, December 05, 2009
Sitting at Delifrance alone, I start to feel cold and lonely now.
I'm waiting to meet my friends at a bbq gathering. This is going to be the last time I'm going to see one of the girls as a single lady. She is getting hitched next month.
I still remember the four of us were close friends after JC and during university. Now as one is getting married, another is going to be a mother soon.
It is quite depressing to know that everyone else is happy except me. I've lost the man who I love after almost 3 years of indulgence in happiness. Since then, all my relationships were unsuccessful, all because I couldn't get myself over him.
Yesterday, a friend asked if I'm scared that I would lose my value of an attractive lady if I were to continue remain single. Hmmm, Yes was my answer. I can't help but to think that my life has made a huge downturn ever since that incident. I don't want to hate him anymore. Maybe I am just not destined to have a true love.
I finally come to realise, after more than a year of unhappiness, I'm actually suffering from depression.
Posted by Buzz and Mulan at 9:06 PM